White Flag

KISS?

You may see it as an expression of affection, in different sorts, depending on where you lay your lips on. You may see it as a form of greeting. Some may see it as a sign of respect or regard, others may see it offensive though...well, mostly depending on situations. 

See, everyone has their own definition of it that I would really love to hear. Actually, before I wrote this blog, I was planning to ask people to speak their minds out. If only I was a patient granny. Unfortunately I am a hungry lioness who can't wait to rage her claws on the laptop. I've been dying to write again. And just as this spark is still existing, I won't let go of it, not until I grow a third arm.

It's hard to let go of the familiar. The things you grew up loving? The things that helped you grow? The things you got used to be doing? The things where your life revolved on for so long? Who could say that change is easy to accept, especially when it's drastic? Who could say that forgetting things you are accustomed to can just happen in just a blink of an eye? 

If only there is a door to oblivion. Entering it must make it easier for us to accept that nothing will ever be the same again. But we can never always get what we want. Life does not always have to be about us. 

A kiss is a bold act for me. Like when you kiss someone in the middle of a crowd, just as in the movies. Or if you kiss someone goodbye, just like what I will be doing today. I am kissing my past goodbye. The past is where we learn. You may think why I would like to throw it away if it is that vital. Well, I have already learned. And I need not dwell on it anymore. I've learned by heart, not just by the coils in my head. And if you did the same, you need not look on the past to guide you ever again. 

A kiss is a concrete form of passion. As much as I fear to go out of my comfort zone and be lost in the brave world, I am on fire to seek the joy out of it. Be that I would start all over again, or am I more prone to get hurt, I don't care. I guess it's not bad to be trigger happy for once, and just let things come as they are.

Nothing is too easy. We can't get everything in a snap. Just like a kiss. Because our lives is not made to revolve on ourselves. It is not made to be a piece of cake. It was designed this way that we may know how weak we are, and that we need someone BIG to carry us through, to be our fortress, and protector. 

As I move from the confines of my safe zone out to the open wild; As I leave the familiar to embrace the unsure; As I lay a kiss on the past to taste what is in store for me ahead, I will ever be trusting only ONE NAME, and I will ever be relying on His promises. Of all the mess of uncertainty in my mind, only one thing is sure and is true: THE LORD HOLDS MY FUTURE. He has the best plan for me. And I need not fear, no matter how blinded I am right now, because I know that I will be protected, and will never be alone.    

And so to all who are trapped in the past just like me before, don't be afraid to kiss them goodbye. There is so much in store ahead that you can only experience when you leave. 

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"Because he loves me," says the Lord, "I will rescue him;

    I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.

He will call on me, and I will answer him;

    I will be with him in trouble,

    I will deliver him and honor him.

With long life I will satisfy him

    and show him my salvation."

Psalm 92:14-16